Today, when I look back, I find every thing different. No sound of his laughter tickles in my ear. Nobody says 'I love you' anymore. Nobody pampers me like him. Nobody seems excited as he used to on my birthday. I will turn 26 after 15 minutes but today, my heart doesn't placid anymore because it is my first birthday without him. I miss his face, his laughter, contentment in his eyes, his peck on my cheek, the way he used to lift me, the way we used to damp each other's face with cake. The feeling of isolation fills my heart among so many people. Now, these people are mine..yes...all of sudden...but yah now they are mine...they are my In-laws.
Life is unforeseeable. Last year, on the same day, at the same time, he was around me, dancing, giggling, teasing me, surprising me with my favorite gifts and today he is nowhere. It is my first birthday without him. But, my heart still carves for his call. The first thing I want to hear at 12.00 A.M. is his voice and nothing else.
What if he doesn't call? what if he forgets? what if he doesn't call at midnight? What if....
No..No...I know he will call. I can sense him looking at the wall clock, waiting the hour and minute to meet. I can sense him missing me.
"Trin...Trinn...."
"This must be him. Unknown number..."
"Hello!"
"Happy birthday, Dear"
"Thanks, You never forget..."
"....and I never will",
"Ummmhhhh....I love you."
"Have you cut the cake?"
"No, Not yet..."
"Ok.Then go back. Everybody must be waiting for you. Go and enjoy with your family."
"No. I don't want to. I want to talk to you. You are my family."
"Yah. I know, I am but there is someone more special now. hhhaahha."
"Don't laugh. It is making me angry."
"If it is making you angry, then you must go. Bye"
Beep...beep
He disconnects the call. What should I do now? Sleep or wait for anyone's call?...With whom should I celebrate? No one is here. This empty room haunts me. Will Atul call me? Does he even remember my Birthday?
I think my husband must have got tired and slept as he is out for business purpose. None of my friends called me. What an amazing Birthday?
But I got a call from the one I wanted. I know, no matter how much life keeps everyone busy, there is one person in the world who will stay awake to wish me and he is my dad.
Dad, yes, you are not just family but my whole world.
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